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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

before you even start, you know it's not going to be as good as what you wanted.

我现在就好像行尸走肉一样.

代价.

我付出了.

我...

...

真的宁愿不这么做.

可是，我偏偏就得这么做.

原来...我未麻痹.

leona penned down her thoughts at 9:49 AM

Friday, February 22, 2008

been quite some time since i last posted.

quite alot of things happened lately.

but well, right now, i don't really have much 心情 to write about them.

but i shall still emphasise that, i got super stress on thursday.

1st: SS common test

didn't finish the weighing part, and after that, just got some 不踏实的感觉.

2nd: math test

results: like totally whou.

my friend (prc scholar; but do get my meaning) got 14/20, and then my other friend exclaimed that she failed her test, so i was like, shit. what am i getting.

but was quite heng, cos i didn't do that badly.

3rd: Chinese Test

you know the feeling of going to get your results? YA! i was totally omgomgomgomgomg.

at first it wasn't so bad. got 22/30 for the 成语 and 综合填空.

then i was like thinking, okay lah, 35/50 also not bad, at least get A2, cos the other part was on 演讲词.

but the thing is, in the end i got 37/50, and i got just one mark less, if not i could get an A1. -_-.

worse thing is, my 演讲词got扣一分 just because i didn't write 大家好. and the next thing that's WORST was that, I WANTED TO WRITE BUT I LIQUIDED IT! omgomgomgomgomg. FAINTS.

4th: Geog Test

i got 14/20, like totally oh man.

cos the test wasn't difficult, but like, i got some keywords wrong, like, huh? whatever lah. hai...

it's not as if o-levels test you how to fill in the blanks.

but i know the keywords matter, but yeah. hai...

and lastly, this does not only apply to thursday, but OMG. i'm going to explode in ms lim's class.

differentiation. like GOSH!

i mean, i totally hate the feeling like, she left us in a confused state and then when her lesson ends, she 拍拍屁股就走. like walao.

i realised, i keep pulling and messing my hair in her class.

literally.

well, this week seems to go very fast. in fact, sec 4 life seems to go very fast.

will be super busy for the next 2 weeks. super busy as i'm bombarded with 4 tests in each week.

oh well.

我的心情, 不踏实, 不好过, 不愉快. 我在比较吗? 我真的很想跳出来, 但还是有条绳有时在拉着我, 但也是那条绳子, 把我弄松, 离我而去.

leona penned down her thoughts at 9:29 PM

Sunday, February 17, 2008

yesterday, i thought it through.

and i wanna try to give it up.

because it's too tiring. perhaps for me.

but i need time. and support.

我真的就快要崩溃了.

leona penned down her thoughts at 1:18 PM

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

first thing that ruined my day was, being late for school.

like darn? i mean, yeah, i missed the earlier bus, but the next bus was SO late!

i waited like around 20 minutes for the bus and eventually i took the cab to school.

我坚信我不会迟到, 可惜,老天爷想要让我得到个教训.

$11.60 and running 2 round round the parade square.

well, after that, lessons were boring, but fast. did practically nothing lah.

just some mere brief introduction of electrolysis by mr yow, and then a slacking period by ms lim, and then i went for recess.

yeah, so after that went to SHPS, but i met up with rachel before that. haha.

so thoughtful of her to meet me at interchange instead of the school. :D

yeah and i realised, she wears FLATS! LOL.

girl, you've GROWN! haha.

never knew you'd wear such shoes and wear jeans, omg. i've never really seen you wear them before!

and haha, we toured the school lah. saw a few people, but not much. especially from 6/7.

yeah, so we went to the art room. OMG.

laughed histerically. at what? my paintings on the wall. like OMG. hahaha.

i can't believe i drew those man. it was horrid! hahaha.

there's like, "A B C" and "1 2 3". hahaha.

and i dapped my way through the walls. i mean, you can totally see that those dapped paintings are mine. hahaha.

i went like, "THERE, THIS IS MINE! OMG, THIS ONE ALSO!" HAHAHA.

we laughed like maddddddd. rachel was like, "omg, so horrible lah! you're from art club leh HELLO" lol.

i even wrote my name BIG-LY on those drawings. haha. gosh. so embarrassing.

but it's kind of nice looking back at what we did last time. (:

well, so after that we went to our school's nearby Mcs and eat. haha. eat and talk, eat and talk. (:

i remember we used to go to that Mcs most of the time last time. haha.

OH and i saw caleb. haha.

i went like, "whoa, 你好高哦!" then he replied, "whoa, 你好矮哦". so i gave that, lol, whatever~ kind of face. hahaha.

and i saw PENG HOCK! haha. he's still kind of niang, but friendly lah. (: better then some people... haha.

so after eating Mcs, we went tampines interchange to shop a bit, haha.

we bought a bag each! :D

omg, i lovvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeee my bag! (:

and i love rachel too. (: you rock. haha.

i guess by the end of our gathering, i start to try and drag our conversation, cos...

i don't want it to end just like that.

but i guess, good things will always end, but at least, i've experienced it, and it's great. (:

our friendship is still strong, even after so many years. and i've confidence that it'll go on. :D

enjoyed my 除夕 overall, haha. because of rachel, and everything everything. :D

it made up for the $11.60 plus being late for school. haha.

大家enjoy新年哦! (:

leona penned down her thoughts at 5:40 PM

Sunday, February 03, 2008

on friday we had a talk between the sec 4s ourselves.

i guess i never realised that the standard of the sec4s are dropping.

i mean, i don't know why, but it's like, i guess we think we're sec 4s that's why.

and yeah, overpowering is kind of a problem with us too. especially those who can take over the squads sometimes.

i mean, even i do have such feeling too, haha. but yeah, i try to control it lah.

because it isn't really a good thing to overpower the juniors especially when, you're not really fit to.

but i wasn't surprised over the topics they were talking about.

because i know that the problem has always been there. 她们的心里始终还是有那根刺.

i'm not saying that they're totally wrong, but i guess they gotta 经历 more stuff. then they'll know that what they're thinking, is just one-sided.

oh well, then saturday we had the briefing. and then we had training after that.

some people got quite emotional, and i guess it's kind of understandable lah. cos sometimes, they just don't want to let the group down, they are afraid that during the competition this happens again, that kind of thing.

but don't worry! we'll all be in this together. no matter what. (:

and we played the WHEEL OF FORTUNE! :D can't believe they never watched the show before. omg.

i've always watched it when i was young lahhhh. 没有童年. hah.

and i wanna apologise to rayseen and jolene, that i shouldn't have said that those teachers you've mentioned are not good teachers, cos in the first place, they've never taught me before, so i was kind of crapping? sorry for just saying that what y'all are saying are wrong. so yeah. and i take back the "i punch you" from rayseen. haha.

anyway, was so tired when i came back home. reading the 成语 while dozing off. hah.

not that it's boring, but i was kind of tired. but plus reading i totally switched off. haha.

so i slept ALL THE WAY, 14 hours, and then i woke up today! (: lol.

now studying the 成语again. haha. jiayou ba! (:

leona penned down her thoughts at 9:26 AM