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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

谢谢你, ngik hiong. (:

绝对不可以跨过朋友的线.

leona penned down her thoughts at 6:04 PM

Saturday, April 26, 2008

i wanted to write my dedications to the sec 4s as well as sir and m'am yesterday.

cos, i think it's rather significant to do so, since yesterday was the first day we're not having NP trainings anymore.

but yeah, got some other stuff to do, so... delayed till now.

but it's okay. haha.

at first i didn't thought of dedicating, cos i kind of said the speech plus to some ppl at the dinner at wanling's house there, but i realised i didn't say to everybody.

maybe writing it down here would be more proper. (:

so SEC 4S ALERT. SEARCH YOUR NAME DOWN HERE YEAH? :D

right, FIRST UP!

The girl that resembled ms poh after she rebonded her hair...

(: ashley tong pei yeng.

actually i've kind of told you what i felt about you through these 3 years. but yeah. it's okay, haha.

actually 坦白说, sec 1 的时候我没有觉得你很bossy leh.

maybe at that time i was kind of -_-. but haha. i guess i could tolerate better than others maybe? haha, i don't know.

but to me, you're a nice friend. really. you make me want to do better, want to strive harder. so thank you for that. :D

enjoy those times when you will just crap and lame with me too. (: rock on dude!

and like i said, be a great CI. jiayou! (: hope we'll continue having this friendship yeah? even though we passed out. :]

我们一起带spects可爱吧? 我会想你的哦~

next up, the girl that likes to put make-up.

LISA GOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

actually i've hardly talked to you, really.

but i do remember that someone here is the BEST CAMPER for the june camp.

lisa, i do believe that you can be as good as anyone of us here in NP.

i really hope to see that you will continue to put your heart and soul in whatever you do. because, you'll always be our best camper (: i don't know how you felt that night when i told you that sir still remembered that you were the best camper, but i was really moved. really. :]

like i think everybody knows that you were super enthu last time? super outgoing that kind of thing?

in fact, i felt like, you and sheena that time for the mc-ee thingy, it's as if the stage is all yours. you know. so don't give up in whatever you do.

我深信lisa you have a mind of your own. though i don't really know much about your stuff, but i just hope you know what you really want in life.

because, at the end of everything, you're a mere 16 year-old girl.

still, thanks for bringing NOISES into NP. (: in fact, last time you were crazy over ming wei right? (read from sheena's blog) i was like, ... last time. even if you say this again like now, i'll be double ... OKAY! haha. but you have a great understanding for things lah. really. so, hope you'll enhance on your capabilities and do your best in everything that you do. life is more than just what we're doing now. hope you get what i mean. (: jiayou for O levels! :D

四大美女哦~ (X

next? the super ultra bony girl.

LIM JIA NING RACHELLLLLL.

(: aiyo, 这个女的太多人喜欢了啦! haha.

actually i've also told you what i wanted to say at wanling's place, but it's okay. haha. i like it when you and ashley laugh. haha. and for you, when you laugh, you're like, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, and then you'll start bending down and trying to 靠 on something. haha. (:

you're our famous good dancer in our unit so it's good having to be able to be in the same dance group as you. (:

but actually sometimes i do feel that during this whole dance thing, it's almost as if only you and ashley are dancing, then me and ngik hiong are like, just to copy y'all that kind of thing. i mean, it's too cliqued lah.

although it's kind of inevitable, but i still think as a group, we should do things as a group. like 4 people. so in the end it wasn't so bad, cos we managed to choreograph parts to mix us all together. (:

hope we'll still laugh like we used to whenever we meet up again, okay? (: and it's great having you as our newly joined PPC member too. :D

hope we'll still go crazy, like that.

next! the ever so JOKEY girl of the unit.

LIM JIA MIN! :D

i remember we used to laugh and joke that kind of thing. (: bet my lameness made your day too larh har. haha.

do you remember? that time i was quite jittery about going to OBS.

then you said like, "you can do it, jiayou" and you patted on my shoulder. that really moved me alot. really.

and even during the OBS trip i thought about what you said.

when times were tough there, i thought about NP, thought about sir etc. really, you motivated me. thank you so so much my friend. i've always wanted to tell you this, because, it really helped me alot. (: thanks for your encouragement. :D

jiamin, i know the POP preparation thing actually caused you alot of stress and pressure. and i'm rather apologetic that, we caused most of the stress and everything. but i hope the big hug we gave you made you feel that all was worthwhile (:

thanks for being rather 坚强 throughout. i've always regarded you as a super cheerful friend. (: i remember that time the NCO interview, you kind of teared abit. :l and i did encourage you i remember, lol. 希望我们的友谊会长久哦!

i feel very glad to have such a lively friend. (: crappy jiamin. haha. still remember we used to call you donald duck or sth? haha. :D hope you still keep the tape i gave you! haha. peggy jiamin too. thanks for helping me to peg whenever you see that i'm rather exhausted. haha. although we always 开玩笑 that kind of thing, but to me, you're one true friend too. (:

i remember too, that time we went recee at fort canning park, then we saw a tree with it's aerial roots hanging in the air, so i exclaimed like, "THAT'S JIAMIN'S HAIR!" lol. cos it's straight de lah. can. hai, i don't have the pic with me now lah! maybe i'll put on my dp when i get the photo then i show you k. :D lastly, thank you loads. (: haha, and i do enjoy those times when we lass together. LOL. or fight over michelle. [pssst. but i think we more suitable for each other. LOL. (x]

一定要继续联络哦! (:

thanks for that day. for not minding my swollen-ed eye, making me feel not so 尴尬. (: i will always remember it, friend.

next up! THE GIRL THAT HAS MULTIPLE EYELIDS. (x

know who? 她就是我们的boss! (: MICHELLE YIO LI JUN.

haha. cool description of you yeah? (: so DETAILED. haha.

anyway, yeah i also said about you at wanling's place. haha. but once again, I'TS OKAY. (:

wanna thank you for sharing with me your problems that kind of thing. cos, at least it makes me feel that, i'm considered as your friend lah. haha.

cos... i'm glad that i can be your listening ear, and try to help you in your problems lah. haha.

我知道你现在为了一些事儿烦恼,不开心什么的. 我也知道你也挺为难,挺辛苦.

但我宁愿, 你不要在我面前伪装, 就连一个(: 我也希望, 是真正地发自内心.

i'm actually listening to the song, my love will get you home.

so, i guess, i'll dedicate this song to you michelle yio. (: "get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home"

i do enjoy joking with you too (: the LJM relationship. (: haha. and i'm very glad that our AHNP 有你这个wonderful 1st ever chairperson. 要感到荣幸! (: 希望我们也还可以一起疯狂吧! (:

好朋友(:

next! THE EVER SUPERB TIMER of our squad!

haha, NEO SHEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAA.

i remember we were in the same group before. for a camp, june camp is it?

i can't really remember already, but i know we were together in some bugs bunny group ah. haha.

then your initals were like, NS. then you were like also saying, whoa my initials damn cool or sth. haha.

i was like, "EH? YAH LAH! NS!" haha.

though i don't really know you very well lah, cos most of time you have your friends and i have mine.

but i do remember last time sec 2 NP, whoa, i felt quite - about the clique thing.

cos i mean, it's like, your clique, like, you, wenxin, megan, rachel, eugenia they all will just be like dominating the whole unit. when, it's like, huh? it's kind of unofficial that y'all are "in-charge". so i was rather, hai... especially during NDP.

it's like, i totally cannot sense the belonging to the squad. because, we're totally split into halves like that.

but we've come so far lah, i should say. right? haha.

actually i think you're quite a "on" person. like sometimes when i ask you to help me do some stuff, like, tell your sec 1s what what what, help bring whatsoever that kind of thing, you'll just be "okay, sure, no problem".

really, i think that's quite amazing lah. cos, you're always co-operative and will do the things that i requested, so, i think it's really a thumbs-up. (:

then... hmm... i never really know much about your stuff, but i think, friends don't come by easily lah. really. no matter what really happened, maybe time can help erase them off. i know it's not easy like i'm just saying it like that, but. do see the overview of the whole matter instead of just a single detail. (:

so, good luck for everything you do! (: and good job in getting the SPF badge. once again. haha. i feel honoured that the SPF receipient brought along my beret! (x even though i couldn't get the badge right, i still feel glad that i was also nominated along with you lah. :D

hold on to the good memories we had

okay, after sheena is... THE SCANDALOUS person (don't know say guy or girl (x)

NG RAY SEEN!

i also say about you at wanling's house there le, but i shall say abit more here lah. haha.

i think we've only been closer these 1 to 2 years. but, yeah, thanks for those little things that you've done lah. (: i do appreciate them!

i do hope that through the difficulties or problems that you face, you'll grow to learn more about how to relate to other people, and grow to gain more experiences, so that next time, you'll understand better and know what to do again the next time you encounter these obstacles.

我觉得, 嫉妒的心理每个人都会有, 只是你能不能控制, 把它压制到最低. 要对自己说, 你不可以这样想, 要用自己的力量, 调整自己的价值观. jiayou! (:

thank you for not minding my swollen-ed eye too. cos i didn't mind that you were smelly! (x

okay, next will be the ever hunching-back and low spected girl. lol. (x jkjk.

NG YUN SHI JOLENE!

once again, thanks for being a caring friend lah. (: i remember got one time my zuo wen right, i kind of mentioned about you. haha.

i say 你做事总不要求回报, 只想为别人着想, 为别人付出, 只要能帮助别人就很开心了. 真的很感激能够有你这样的朋友. (: 什么事, 只要自己能够做到, 就会尽力去做. 所以, 要继续这种助人为乐快之本的精神okay! (:

and i kind of know about that time the NCO promotion thing, you were quite sad that kind of thing lah, but still, you didn't really 埋怨, which i think is really, very commendable, cos... i just think 你还挺有修养的啦. (: 所以加油for the 'O's oh~! :D

the short haired girl (: will remember you! hope to see you around in this area yeah? haha.

next... we have the SCAMMER of our squad.

PHANG YAN LING! (:

side note, listening to 迷迭香 now. omg. dancing to the song. LOL.

okay back. haha, i think you're a funny person too lah. (: 我们两个双剑合并whoaaaaa. haha. i know i'm most of the time super lame. but not lamer than NG RAY SEEN! and TEE NGIK HIONGGG. lol. (: at least my lame jokes are funny even if it's SO lame until you want to faint. (x

yup, we used to laugh and laugh like mad right.

like i remember got one time rayseen was saying something "if" so i went "whether". LOL.

it may sound dumb, but at that time both of us just laughed like madddddd. and i really enjoy it. (:

and we also went out and eat swensens right? with rayseen, lijing and ngik hiong. haha.

enjoyable times (: really great. 希望这种gathering 不会停止k! and i also enjoy the times we go for PPC together. the whole PPC gang. (: i remember the POP that day i was like, "来, PPC 的人一起拍照! 来!" (x though the other MRT gang were trying to attract attention, we still outshone them lah~! :D and we always go home after CCA together. after PPC. haha, and i remember! that day we saw kevin. omg. haha. you know what was my reaction? i was like, WHOA KAN DAO GUI. (x lol. not that bad lah, but. to the extent whereby i was shocked abit lah. haha.

yup, and you're also famous for your arrowed eyebrows. :D haha. and you always like to play with your dentures. if you call them that. >< and i really think that you dance well! HIP-HOP IS TOTALLY YOUR STYLE YOH~ haha. :D fabulous. hidden-talent seh~ ahaha. 要继续联络, 去PPC or go out to changi airport k? i still remember that time me and ngik hiong 偶遇 you and lijing there, and we sat together and had a great great time. talking about serious issues, that kind of stuff. i remembered i was talking about my cousin. and my uncle i think. haha. but it's all so memorable. thank you for all the jokes and laughter! (: really think it's great that we laughed together AT THE SAME TIME that day. :D jiayou!

will remember the PPC times...

next, is the girl that breathes in DEEPLYYYYY. lol.

SIM SOK YONG MEGAN! (:

always tease you that your name is called SOK KOK. hahaha.

actually i never knew you chant!

haha. and i think although you look quite quiet and reserved, but i think you're actually a very WILD GIRL! :D judging from your dressing... haha.

you're a nice nice nice girl lah. really.(: always trying to help out, especially when i ask when are we doing our CIP that kind of thing. talking about this, when are we doing it ah? lol. (x

i remember that time i was teasing you about you breathing very deeply. lol. i can't really remember why, but it was about some... stink thing. lol. (X just kidding de okay! but it was hilarious lah i remember. haha.

cos i think you that time at PPC you raise your arm then hit some guy or sth right. lol. and it's great having you as our PPC member. (: loved those days. must 经常约go PPC k? :D

used to feel that you and terry were slackers in portilo sopra >< but it's y'all that made us get the best camping group. thanks (:

okok, next next! is the girl that has a VERY UNIQUE hairstyle. (:

TAN LI JING! haha. i know we've talked alot at wanling's place, so much so i started crying. >< lol. but it's okay! 你也知道我这个人啦, 话不会少说的. :D

really love the way you laugh. haha. cos it's like, 超夸张的啦! your face literally turns red and then you'll like, bend down and maybe 趴在地上. lol. :D then most of the time i'll go like, "li jing! you okay or not! why you laugh until like that!" hahaha. and i'll end up laughing too. :D hope we'll still be able to laugh like that. but i will always remember, we always laugh in PT-kit.and i remember the SIR? your 克星 (x haha, and then you were laughing when you were supposed to "apologise" i was also laughing then. (x i remember that time we played captain's ball. then it was super funny, somehow. cos i think ngik hiong was like, fighting for the ball with another girl, who is it? i don't know who lah. but then 两个不是很高的人, 居然两个都抓不到球, then i think hit don't know who ah. lol. cannot really remember clearly le lah. but it was SUPER hilarious. (x

hope we can play captain's ball again together! although i know you don't really like playing... haha. BUT I REMEMBER YOHANA! lol. *winks* guess you know what i'm talking about ah. she and her dance moves. LOL. interesting... :D

did i tell you before? last time 我不是like, stand in front and command our squad? i can't really remember when... but then i think you look nice doing kekanan lurus. seriously! is like. the moment you turn your head ah. WHOAAAAAA. lol. you may think i'm weird lah, haha, but that was how i felt! (: omg. this is so deja-vu. i remember dreaming something like that before. ><

anyway, yup. but at that time your hair wasn't bunned up de lah. haha. then i'm really glad that we're in PPC together. (: you know most of the time right, if you're not going for PPC, then it'll be kind of - lah. cos... somehow, you make it more fun lah. :D ARE YOU PRAISED? hahaha. you don't have to go around and say you're important okay. this kind of thing, keep in your heart ah. LOL.

hope you do remember what i've said at wanling's place, and i'll remember what you said at her place too. (: i also cherish being your friend. rock on okay! (: don't stop being yourself. because that's what makes you, li jing. (:

and i always thought your li jing is 立 and a 静 you know. i've told you before right. you go 站立! and 安静! can you visualise me acting it out? lol. 超好笑. :D and the way you "laugh" is very 奇怪 too. remember i told you that time at Macs? especially when you're lamed right. your shoulders will kind of vibrate and then your neck bends down with your eyes looking upwards. lol. doubt you'll understand, but next time i show you lah! hahaha. it's funny looking de okay! and when it's like, 哭笑不得的时候, you'll be like, hah, and then your body moves, then hah, and then your body moves again. lol. i'm super observant de okay~ :D 总之, 我觉得你这个人蛮comical de lah. got alot of funny moves. LOL. :D cool friend that i have. jiayou in whatever you do k! :D

and you ah, haiyo. 太attractive le lah! remember, "smiles~" lol. you know what, next time cannot go out with you man. 自卑啊(x and got boyfriend cannot show you. hahaha. later he run away how. >< lol.

anyway, thanks for trying to help me to 解毒. (: thanks for being by my side when sometimes i just needed to rant. thank you! *我们之间的秘密哦!* enjoyed that night when i went home with you after the unit reunion dinner. (: thank you! <3

me, imitating you "emo-ing" haha. (: loved those days we go bukit gombak for air rifle training. will remember them!

NEXT UP! the girl that's yohana's good friend (:

TAY SZE HUA LAVINIA! :D don't know if you'll read this, but it's okay. haha.

坦白说, 我跟你真的很不熟, 真的很少合作过, 所以也很少讲过话. but that time i saw you talking to the sec 1s this year, and i actually see you smile rather widely infront of them. i was like, "whoa, lavinia 居然也会笑?" not that i'm trying to imply anything else, but i really hardly see you smile in NP trainings. but i'm still glad to have you as part of our NP family. (: and i guess it's quite 可惜 that you cannot really join us for the full POP. cos, i really want to know how you felt throughout this whole NP journey. hope in someway or another, you've learnt some things and gained experiences through NP. and you're really good at PT man. (: especially when you got champion for the fitness competition. (: GOOD JOB MAN! it shows that we AHNP are fit and tough de okay! :D

please do not get distracted by li jing's comical face. LOL. focus on the one to the extreme left! (:

okay, next up will be... the girl that constipates. :]

i think everybody knows who she is lah. i mean. why does "constipation" link so well with tee ngik hiong? LOL. jkjk.

haha, we've known each other through 1B and 2B and in NP. it was me who persuaded you to put NP in one of your choices. (: and i'm glad you're in NP. COS IT WAS ME WHO PERSUADED YOU TO~! WAHAHA. lol. okay... but anyway, whoa, i'm gonna get some backache just typing and typing here. so longggggggg. haha. okok back to topic. i still remember how you looked like when you had short hair. you looked like some albino kid lah. lol. now still 很白, but okay le lah. better. haha.

really thank you for all the times we've spent together. (: you're more than a friend to me lah. haha. cos is like, our friendship is really good to the extent that, i go take blood test, i ask you go with me. then we took together somemore, and we got the same blood group somemore. (: i needed to go see the doctor a few times then 你也陪我去etc. 真的很谢谢你. (: though sometimes i really go walao with your 迟钝ness, but it's okay. friends must tolerate one another's weaknesses right. haha. :D the good thing about you is that sometimes out of the blue you'll just say something interesting and funny. but sometimes, you really make me want to faint.

like i remember that time i went to see doctor, then you see the floor, then i was talking to you, then you suddenly exclaimed, "OH~! THIS IS THE PARADE SQUARE FLOOR!" omg lah... i can totally FAINT! 真是diao-ded 透顶 okay. and that time you were like pondering over, "why is the cup a pepper?" walao... haha. but it's okay, they all contribute to my wonderful memories of you. (:

i remember that day we had our 2nd ATC groupings. then i was at first grouped with you. then i was really happy. cos i mean, you know lah, i'm not very good at socialising with ppl i don't know, so i was really glad that you're in my group so that i can still be myself even though the environment is rather unfamiliar. but 天不作美. hai. so we've never been in the same camp group throughout our NP lives. haha, but it's okay lah. i take it as a challenge from 上天来锻炼我leh! :D

i've always thought of you as my close friend, someone whom i can just talk about almost anything. and you know what? 我觉得你最大的优点就是, 对朋友很真诚. nothing is better than a really true friend. right! :D

and you got marble-eyes you know ngik hiong. that kind of small marbles. LOL. but cos sometimes i see you look at a train that's passing by right, then your eyes will go left and right left and right very quickly. 很有趣leh! (x thanks for being by my side whenever i feel down that kind of thing. i just want to tell you, it's always been a pleasure going out with you. cos i think, we're somehow alike in the way we actually, are. haha. 单纯,又比较俗一点吧, like we don't really like wearing belts, then... we're just the normal selfs lo. don't really like to over 打扮. plainly ourselves is good. right? :D

really great knowing you. especially when i'm laming around and you can't stand it, and you'll be like, what the hell. omg. and start to faint. but most of the time you'll just laugh and laugh and laugh. remember that time we saw a fake person in the bag? lol. it was scary lah. hahaha. but it was rather amusing to see your reaction when you saw it. LOL.

and tell you something? you know during OBS, things weren't really going very smoothly, and then i thought about sir, thought about NP, thought about jiamin, etc. and 我的鼻子真的还有点儿酸. 我就想起了你. you know what i said? "whoa... i miss ngik hiong man, why can't i see her constipated face?" haha. and then 我不禁笑了. (: 所以, 就算你不在我身边, 我也觉得你无形中也在鼓励我. (:

希望我们会永远成为好朋友. (: just love everytime we go out together. especially swensens gatherings. :D i know i still owe you a few treats, but. haha. arrange time lah har! :D i really enjoy going changi airport too. because, you're there too. (: [pssst. 感动吗? haha] 那种感觉, 真的很自在, 让我觉得有些轻松,甚至是想,就那样躺在Swensens 的沙发上就好了. and i always laugh at you, cos when you do drills, sometimes you can just be clumsy and become so awkward. though sometimes i'll also be like that lah, but, haha, sometimes it's darn hilarious when you thought nobody sees it, but then i do. guess it's telepathy? (x and good job in the td gold proj! LOL.

我们的友谊万岁! :D 要常联络哦! all the best for your 'O' s!

next up! it's the ever so flag bearing flag bearer. lol.

TEO WANLING! :D

i think it's really a great honour to actually carry our school's flag in the parade. (: and you did it! i really feel proud that, ahnp is actually recognised, with you bearing our school's flag. (:

i just read your blog and i'm really touched once again. thank you friend. (:

although we don't really talk alot, but i'm very happy to have known you as my friend. 谢谢你的义气. 我真的很开心能够认识你这个人. (: and i like your hair! :D though i cut short hair le right, but it's okay! haha. easy to maintain lah har. haha. :D and you really look like your mum! haha. like photocopy like that. not bad. (: once again, thanks for whatever you've done, for me, for us, for the unit. we really appreciate it. good luck in getting CI! 我会支持你的! (: jiayou oh~ & 要继续联络! haha. though i always lame you. heh.

will miss sweating in pt-kit. :/ thanks for being my model for the shirt, "i just love being an NCO" (:

next, THE FIERCE LOOKING I/C.

VALERIE CHU DE ZHIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. :D

"siao ah" lol. i bet you'll say that right! haha. thanks for being a nice friend. cause with you around, NP gets high when we should, gets disciplined when we should. i know that time you were rather pressurised as a sec 3 squad i/c. but i think you've done your best in trying to uphold our level of discipline and to set a good example for us to follow. (: and i really can imagine you commanding your siblings leh! "SQUAD DIAM!" lol. (x i'm still quite glad that we managed to be in the same group for the inter-unit proj lah. haha. it's still fun overall, eh? (: and i think when you smile and joke etc, you look great. :D and thanks ah, for laughing at me whenever i'm bored. I CAN'T SING WHEN I'M BORED IS IT! lol. >< will remember those times when i start humming a tune and you'll start laughing like mad. (: <3 your picture with those shades. rock on dude. :D

remember the inter-unit thing? we did the try-out. POOF YOUR FACE IS FULL OF FLOUR! :D

next, the ever so high, as if she's 开-ing 演唱会的...

WANG JIAN QIONG! :D

thanks for 默默地为我们NP 付出. (: 谢谢你. 你跟jolene 一样, 做什么事, 也不要求回报, 值得赞许! :D 我还记得, 以前你也得过一个特别的奖项during camp. 很高兴能够跟你在同一个CCA里. 度过3年的日子. (: 其实坦白说, 我们在一起做TD gold 的 project 的时候, 我还以为你会觉得有点out, 而我又会觉得有些奇怪, 因为毕竟跟你也不太熟. 可是我们居然还玩得挺疯的! 虽然起初我会觉得有些frustrated, cos it's quite difficult to find time to actually do the project. but in the end, we did have a great time. and i'm really glad to have you as my td gold project member. :D thanks for clearing the "uncomfortable" feeling i had about co-operating with you. and you were singing songs in my house. though half the time sleeping while drawing. haha. and you know what? i still have the whole stack of styrofoam boards at home lah! hai. though our drawings etc were wasted, but our video was PERFECTLY successful. :D and i must say throughout this NP journey you must have been through quite alot, especially when you couldn't really participate in our trainings very often, and the thing is that, even though you may end up being the reserve for PDS or whatsoever, you still smile and let it go. i really admire that alot because it's not easy. really. thank you for being a great cadet in our unit. rock on! (:

thanks for all that you've done (: enjoyed the project because you were there too.

LASTLY! THE SPECKY WENXIN! :D

heyo wenxin. haha. actually i'm not very close to you lah. and 坦白说, 我以前对你的impression 不是很好. cos, 我觉得, 你跟megan 有点, - over guys lah. but i remembered the first day of training, you went like, "we'll be the best" or sth. which made me, "whoa~" you at that time lah. haha. but after we took over the unit, i've got to work with you, that kind of thing. and i could really see the effort that you put in in how to handle your squad. and i think that's really commendable. (: you 要求stuff to be done systematically, and i think the passion for it is really there. and i felt like, wow... you deserved to be the 1st batch to be promoted to ssgt. (:

and we were in the pds team together, whereby we marched in, like the way i marched in with rayseen the other time. but haha, it's not a wedding ceremony okayyyy. >< but anyway, it's still great being able to march with you lah. (it's not a bad thing to march with you too, rayseen). haha. you also try to perfect the pds drills etc, so, yeah. i think you're rather capable. haha. you and your super long hair. it's relatively straight actually. haha. good luck in whatever you do! (:

continue smiling! (:

OKAY. GREAT MAN, I'VE FINALLY FINISHED DEDICATING. OMG. :D (in case y'all don't know, i've written my dedications via the namelist in NP, :/)

but of course, not missing out, sir and m'am. thank you all so so so so much. really. (: by your wonderful cadet, leona quek (:

in our memories. always.

leona penned down her thoughts at 10:21 AM

Friday, April 25, 2008

today is friday.

the first friday without NP trainings anymore.

i set my alarm last night, supposedly to wake me up at 5.50am.

but it called at around 5.40am or 5.45am.

my maid also called me up, but at that moment, i really felt as if 我刚刚才眯一会儿而已，然后就要起床去学校.

then i was rather tired, so i felt, hai, 算了，今天不搭巴士读书了，another day ba.

at that moment i realised that i won't be having NP this afternoon, which made me shagged.

i didn't have the drive to go to school today.

it's like, for the past few days of the week 你熬这么久，in the end? hai.

last time whenever it comes to friday, i'll just be like, whoa, 不想去学校leh. 好累哦！但只要一想起NP, 我就会跟我自己讲，等一下有NP lah, 算了，无所谓！拚了！然后就会起床上学.

然后今天我又在穿衣服的时候，突然间又想到，我今天不用pack什么东西去学校. 我的PT kit, 甚至是Full U 都不用带了.

hai.

i walked super slowly to school today.

even duan rui says, "你这样走啊（imitating how i walk）, 就像行尸走肉一样”.

hai.

and i was still walking very slowly in class to my seat.

wai wai was behind me, waiting for me to walk, yet i was walking so slowly.

i bet he's like, why are you walking so slowly? haha.

but in the end i looked at him and then he gave me that smile, so i went like, haha, sorry. ><

oh well.

then i saw poh chun this morning, and he was like, SHOCKED at my new hairstyle.

he went like, "where did your hair go?" lol. plus a :O

haha. that was rather amusing. (:

but yeah, then during english lesson it was oh man, i was really about to doze off.

though i closed my eyes and really fell asleep a few times, but they're like for a mere few seconds.

then after school, i met up with ngik hiong.

as usual, she's slow in packing her bag, but i didn't really mind, cos.

i just stared into blank space while crouching on the metal thing.

hai.

then she said, "wah 现在才十二点多”

hai. 我顿时就想，平时在这个时候我就会去换衣服，赶快去NP room.

on the train we were even worse.

i went like, "eh Ngik Hiong, why you pon NP? 还要拖我下水，har?"

" 是你拖我下水lor!"

"现在几点? 都一点多了lor. 我们几点要fall in?"

"一点十五lo"

the conversation was 大概about this 内容, then i kind of said like, why are we being so weird.

hai.

oh well.

kind of emo-ing at first, but it was okay lah.

i chose green seats at the kopitiam food court. :D

then 我们越说越激动,over some problems, but yeah.

oh well.

hai.

really cannot stand it lah. :l

but later went popular to buy stuff.

couldn't really find stuff that i wanted...

but okay lah.

then had jokes here and there on the way.

i remembered we were attracted to the CD on the mediacorp songs, then i told her, later you put back lah.

then it was right at the top, so she went like, "YOU VERY GOOD LOR!" and laughing and laughing. lol.

i was laughing too and said, "你要看嘛,就给你慢慢看lor."

then we were kind of commenting on the books sold in popular.

seriously, some of the "notes" or guidebooks are worse than my notes that i make okay. whoa yoh. haha. OOPS.

haha, then at Macs, we were also laughing like madddddd.

"我不要做他的妹妹"

hahaha.

then also we laughed about OH YAH.

cos i told her the seats there got rainbow, then she cannot see.

like usual lah.

lol.

then she stood up and then stand beside me to see what i was talking about.

but you know ah, her body very long, so when she sit right, is quite tall.

but when she stood beside me ah, I THOUGHT SHE WAS KNEELING LAH!

lol.

but yeah. laughed and laughed. (:

so it wasn't so bad lah.

but later on went back to the emo-abit-self.

cos we didn't really want to go back.

and ngik hiong keeps asking if we can walk around, cos she feels weird just sitting there cos we only bought ice-cream. haha. [psst. i got a free treat! (: i deserved it OKAY.]

so then we went out of Macs.

then ngik hiong say, can we just walk around?

then i say, okay.

so i started walking AROUND.

literally.

then she started laughing like mad.

lol.

i was laughing too. haha. :D the lame lame me (:

proud to be one yoh~ haha.

at least it was hilarious? hah.

so in the end we walked around.

but we still didn't want to go back, but in the end we did lah. haha.

haha. the stuff i was carrying was super bulky lah!

hai, 有点希望哪个kind gentleman 可以说, "你需要帮忙吗?" haha. though i'll say, "it's okay, 谢了!" but i'll be like, whoaaaa. haha.

so today was okay lah. overall. :] AND I LOVE MY 风车！:D

and anyway, i think my hair looks like a witch. seriously. like BOOM. hah.

leona penned down her thoughts at 7:47 PM

Thursday, April 24, 2008

it's all, still inside my head.

today wasn't so bad.

i thought after the wednesday changi airport gathering i'll go back to my emo self.

especially when it's a thursday.

but i guess it was better off since there isn't any common test in the morning.

so i could actually eat a heavier breakfast. fried rice!

well, then had PE.

was rather - at the beginning.

maybe they didn't know i was in their group or sth, but it doesn't matter lah.

i made myself useful in the end, so it was still okay.

got back chinese and geog test papers.

was... not really well done... but i guess... it didn't really affect my mood so much lah.

cos... i guess i'm kind of moody in the first place. but hmmm... 还好吧.

during SS was kind of relaxing, cos we didn't have to hear her talk alot.

that's why i didn't fall asleep i guess.

and halfway i was still trying to figure out a qns in the geog paper.

hah.

so... today it rained.

i'd rather it rain now.

cos...

maybe i'll feel kind of better lah.

:I

oh well. i really think that, when problems arise, it's how you handle things that shows the level of maturity.

really.

that's what i've kind of realised, haha. recently.

and i'm listening to "Apologise" now.

i realised my sister has this song. -_-.

lol.

:D nice song. haha.

明天就是Friday了. 孤单的Friday. 我已经不习惯了.

leona penned down her thoughts at 5:05 PM

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

i've screwed my math test. upside down.

oh man.

心情又变得又些失落.

:/

then biology common test paper.

-_-.

oh man...

now i'm afraid to get back geog.

:/

hai.

人生就是这样得啦har.

有时候好，有时候差. 况且，一帆风顺的人生不见得是件好事.

所以，过了今天，明天起，我不要再伤感了！

虽然... 还有事儿使我有些一蹶不振.

:/

Friday, ah Friday.

总期望Friday的我...现在居然宁愿不要Friday到来.

因为到了，又怎么样？

也许...就该习惯吧. 习惯就好.

而且，　我也应该好好地利用早回的时间. 虽然Friday 的课还挺闷的. :/

hai...

为什么我老记着那些不开心的事儿呢？

不知道.

今天是星期三.

明天是thursday. -_-.

然后就是Friday.

but, 我更希望下个星期的Friday 会更好.

希望...我敬畏的的地方会带给我好运？让好的事情发生?

haha. 今天我去发泄咯. 明天，　应该是个更好的一天. 对吗? (:

谢谢你的鼓励！儿子！(x

leona penned down her thoughts at 3:07 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

今天起床, 一整天的感觉, 好像...什么都没有发生过一样.

直到...

我在吃晚餐. 吃着吃着, 我想起了Sir, 我哽咽了.

还以为没有人会发现, 我爸却问我为什么哭.

吃完饭, 我就回房, 我重新读了一遍我写的Speech. 一边读, 一边哭.

很多画面在我的脑海里闪过, 另我心酸.

原来, 感觉还在那儿.

昨天我们正式离开这个CCA.

虽应带着笑容离开, 因为我们毕竟拥有过美好的NP生活. 但NP留给我的, 更是舍不得, 还有那种, 质问人生的念头.

好像太夸张了?

但实际上, 我真的, 很心酸.

一直以来, NP 在AH 里, 都是我的精神之柱. 因为有了NP, 学校的日子没那么难过.

虽然学校的日子也算不上什么难挨什么的, 但是, NP真的带给我在学校里的意义. 因为在NP 里, 我真的可以成为, 真真正正的自己.

昨天早上, 我们有了那个parade. 一看到Ms Pua 回来看我们, 我差点忍不住.

Ms Pua 真的和其他TO 不一样. 她那种真心,真诚, 甚至纡尊降贵当我们的朋友, 真的很难得.

非常非常感激她还记得回来看我们. 或许是最后一次了.

Ms Pua 是出了名的高而且超痩. 还记得我们以前还会注意她穿的耳环, 头发的装饰物品等.

还记得她以前有一次很生气地骂了不知道谁一顿. 好凶. 我从来都没想过原来她也会这么凶.

还是很感激她, 所带给我们的许多欢笑.

我觉得我们的unit 真的有很多欢笑. 大家老爱开玩笑, 闹着玩儿, 好像天塌下来也无所谓, 因为我们总能撑着.

During the parade, when they said we're gonna get our certificate of participation/appreciation, 那一刹那, 我又差一点要哭, 因为我真的恍然大悟, 我今天, 真的要pass out 了.

过后我们大家一大堆人一起拍照留念, 起初, 我真的觉得有点儿怪, 因为我好像不能立刻把自己的情绪改编成很high地去拍照.

但呆会儿, 我们便拍很多照片, 而且还tuck out 我们的full-U.

拍照的时候, 还挺开心的, 好像...我们不是最后一次合照, 最后一次穿着full-U 合照.

坦白说, 当时我真的很希望时间能够倒流, 倒流到我们AGM 的那天. 我们大家都好高兴, 好高兴升了rank, 好高兴michelle 是我们的chairperson, 大家还一起围绕着, 指着她拍照. 如果这不是最后一天, 那该有多好. 但我当时就知道, 时间不可能再倒流了. 而且倒流了也没有用, 因为结果还是一样.

之后, 我们就有一系列的表演. Sec 1s 的表演, 真的很不错. 令我有些惊讶, 但现在回想起来, 我有些欣慰, 因为我觉得我们NP还是有希望的. Sec 2s 的表演很好, 真的蛮棒的. Sec 1s 和 Sec 2s 里都有几个挺会跳舞的人. (:

Sec 3s 的表演也真是没话说. 很creative! (: 模仿了我们全部的人. (Sec 4s + Sir and M'am)

十分逗人开心啦, 所以很棒!

Videos 也拍得很用心, 花了很多很多的时间才弄完, 真的很谢谢你们. 谢谢你们的惊喜和肺腑之言.

想起Sec 3s 都在那儿哭, 我们Sec 4s 一起拥抱她们的那一幕, 很深刻. 很深刻. 谢谢, 有你们这四个juniors. 我相信, 你们可以make a difference. 不要放弃! 无论路有多难走, 记得还有我们这些seniors 和sir and m'am. 我们的大门永远为你们而开.

然后就到了我们来表演. 还挺好玩儿的, 我们各个都跳舞, 然后还有fashion show. but that felt kind of -_-. since the audience were kind of errrrr...

but it's okay (:

then it was my speech.

i started crying when i said, "because i'm passing out today".

i couldn't really carry on when i was talking about Sir, because he really really did many many things for me and for the unit.

but in the end sheena helped me to read it out, then i continued from there.

my eyes were red like don't know what. -_-.

but when i said, "Sec 4s, this is it. we're passing out", i saw many people crying.

i've always wanted to say this, to give it an impact. but in the end, i was the one crying the most i guess.

and my FLOWERS! lisa goh and tan li jing broke the stalk. -_-.

haha.

oh well. then after that we had other speeches, but most importantly, by sir and m'am themselves.

i saw m'am crying. then sir cried too.

it's really touching when sir said his speech, because.

i could really sense his true feelings about what he was trying to convey.

he felt that they didn't do enough for all of us. but to me, to us, you've done so much so much for the unit.

really.

i'm really very very very glad to have known both of you as my sir and m'am.

sir, you're really more than a sir to all of us.

i know you've been doing your best for the unit. and we're really appreciative of it.

i feel that, it's really difficult to just express my grattitude to you with just words, because what you've done for all of us, for me, is so much, and it's so difficult to ever repay you.

the thought that, it may be the last time we're actually be seeing one another as a squad, as a unit, is really very sad.

it'll be the last time i'm wearing my ptkit? the last time we're having ppc? the last time we're having trainings?

after the speech, we had a giving session. i received what sir and m'am gave me, a card with our photo and a short personal message.

i cried after reading it. plus, i received a card by the sec 3s and it's also very touching. i stood there and cry. i looked at li jing, she cried too.

we walked towards each other and we hugged. 我忍不住, 跟她说, "我不想走. 我真的, 不想走."

at that point of time, i really wanted to cry out loud. let everything just flow out of eyes. i don't care.

she told me that she didn't want to go too.

but we have no choice.

i looked around, and took photos of the wept faces.

顿时, 大家, 都在哭. 不论我们怎么掩饰, 怎么忍, 怎么擦, 我们依然, 哭着, 流着眼泪.

i sat on the floor, looking elsewhere.

我突然间觉得, 人生好残酷. 为什么要有分离?

为什么?

我知道这是个很自然的现象. 很自然的过程. 是人生当中必经历的过程. 但我真的真的觉得难过, 心酸, 舍不得.

after that, we had a unit song.

[IF WE HOLD ON TOGETHER]

Don't lose you way with each passing day
不要迷失你的方向　當日子一天天過

You've come so far, don't throw it away
你已經走到這裡　別把一切都放棄

Live believing, dreams are for weaving
活出你的信念　美夢等待你我編織

onders are waiting to start
奇蹟在等待中就要出現

Live your story, faith, hope and glory
活出你的故事　信心　希望和榮譽

Hold to the truth in your heart
謹記著你心中的真理

If we hold on together
只要我們攜手努力

I know our dreams will never die
我知道我們的夢想絕不會死去

Dreams see us through to forever
美夢載著我們航向永恆

Where clouds roll by for you and I
航向白雲為你我悠悠飄飛的所在

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
風中的靈魂　要學著彎腰

Seek out a star, hold on to the end
追隨著一顆明星　堅持到底

Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
峽谷　高山　還有一彎清泉

Washes our tears all away
洗去我們所有淚水

Waves are swaying, someone is praying
水波翻騰　有人在祈?

Please let us come home to stay
請讓我們平安返回家園

If we hold on together
只要我們攜手努力

I know our dreams will never die
我知道我們的夢想絕不會死去

Dreams see us through to forever
美夢載著我們航向永恆

As clouds roll by for you and I
當白雲悠悠飄飛　為你　為我

When we are out there in the dark
當我們身處在那黑暗之中

We'll dream about the sun
我們要夢想著光明的白日

In the dark we'll feel the light
在那黑暗中　我們將會感受到光明

Warm out hearts, every one
溫暖著我們每一個人的心房

If we hold on together
只要我們攜手努力

I know our dreams will never die
我知道我們的夢想絕不會死去

Dreams see us through to forever
美夢載著我們航向永恆

As high as souls can fly
航向最高最遠的地方

The clouds roll by for you and I
那裡白雲悠悠飄飛　為你　為我

and

[细水长流]

年少時候谁沒有梦
无意之中你将心愿透露
就在你生日的時候我将小小口琴送
最难忘记你的笑容
友情的细水慢慢流流进了你我的心中
曾在球场边为你欢呼你跌伤我背负
夜里流星飞渡想象着他日的路途
晚风听着我们壮志无数
年少时候谁沒有愁
满腔愤慨唯有你能听得懂
每当我失意的时候你将那首歌吹奏
琴声悠悠解我情愁
岁月的细水慢慢流流到了別离的时候
轻拍你的肩听我说朋友不要太惆悵
霓虹纵然再嚣張我们的步履有方向
成败不论切莫将昔日遗忘
多年以后又再相逢
我们都有了疲倦的笑容
问一声我的朋友何时再为我吹奏
是否依旧是否依旧
岁月的细水慢慢流流到了別离的時候
轻拍你的肩听我说朋友不要太惆悵
霓虹纵然再嚣張我们的步履有方向
成败不论切莫将昔日遗忘
多年以后又再相逢
我们都有了疲倦的笑容
问一声我的朋友何时再为我吹奏
是否依旧是否依旧
人生的际遇千百种但有知心长相重
人愿长久水愿长流年少時候

唱着唱着, 我又流下眼泪. "If we hold on together", "最难忘记你的笑容友情的细水慢慢流流进了你我的心中" and "问一声我的朋友何时再为我吹奏是否依旧是否依旧岁月的细水慢慢流流到了別离的時候轻拍你的肩听我说朋友不要太惆悵"

我想... 我要时间慢慢地习惯吧. 也需要时间慢慢地恢复过来.

昨天我哭到眼睛都肿了.

Sir, 你还很关心地慰问我. 谢谢.

其实Sir, 你还记得我临走回家之前跟你说的一句话吗?

我真的非常非常感动. 谢谢你. 我会永远记住你所说的话. 永远记住你曾经教过我的道理. 我会努力, 做到最好, 不会让你失望.

而且, 你还不时发短讯给我来慰问我, 真的很感激你对我的关怀. 谢谢你, 把我们当成像朋友一样, 像妹妹一样地疼爱. 谢谢你对我们的爱护. 我们万分地感激.

晚上的时候, 我们去了wanling 家的function room.

一到那里就拍了很多照片, 可因为我的眼睛肿肿的, 大家就得迁就我, 拍得远一点, 不然就借用眼镜拍照. (x

你们真的 "还可以啊!" haha.

谢谢你们, 我的squadmates. 谢谢你们一直以来的支持, 还有友谊. 而且, 谢谢你们不嫌弃我有敏感的眼睛, 常常不时会出现一点小麻烦, 脸真的变得很不可一看.

但你们都不怎么介意, 至少让我觉得, 我怎么不自在. 谢谢. 这对我来说很重要的, 因为我会觉得很尴尬, 很没有脸见人.

谢谢你们还愿意陪我疯.

我会永远记得, 我在NP里疯疯颠颠的日子. 我们一起去PPC, 一起互相笑对方, 一起lame, 一起说秘密, 聊天等.

从这个星期以后, 再也没有fridays 好过了.

你说我悲观也好, 说我不要这么想也罢.

但实际上, 真是如此.

很多人, 没了CCA, 很开心, 觉得更轻松, 更好.

我尊重你们的想法.

但对我来说... 我将失去, 很多很多快乐的日子.

为了2B 我差不多emo 了一年.

我不知道, 这次, 会emo 多久.

但你们放心吧. 我知道我这个人, 挺emotional 的. 但我觉得, 这未必是件坏事.

就像我说的, 我觉得, 我哭得值得.

谢谢NP带给我那么多快乐的时光.

虽然有时会想, 为什么老天爷要让我得到那么多, 但有让这些结束?

想到一半的时候, 我就会否定之前的想法, 因为我知道, 我心里还是认为, 还好我拥有了这些时光, 拥有了那么多东西. 虽然要结束我很舍不得. 难过, 会很思念, 但怎么说, 我还得接受.

慢慢来吧.

也许下一次我们NP一起聚在一起的时候, 我会觉得, 虽然我们分开了, 我们的友谊依然长存.

对吗?

[:

leona penned down her thoughts at 10:25 PM

Saturday, April 12, 2008

原来我发现，每个人都有他们的压力，他们的伤心，他们的无助。

读了之后，真的有种自己很笨的感觉.

我...好像,真的也不怎么会明白别人.

使我跟她关系不close吗?

还是...我真的, 差不多已经变成了个白痴.

我一直以来都没有想过,她居然,会有那么大的压力.

我总会觉得...她的职位很高, 十个十分令人羡慕的职位.

然而, 我把事情看得太表面了.

原来背后,是有多么的辛酸,多么的劳心劳力,多么的无奈.

我...

其实...我们大家之间发生了很多事.

说忘记,说过了,说不在乎了,是在撒谎.

我们大家,都在心理上,都承受了很多的不愉快,很多伤心,很多令我们甚至痛苦的时候.

对,说得没错,我们经历了四年的生活,思念的酸甜苦辣,甚至现在,还在经历.

只是,我真觉得有些惭愧. 我自问自己的观察能力相当不错,而且,对于人与人之间的感受与经历,我也想得比较透彻,为何居然会如此疏忽呢?

连好朋友的感觉都给漏掉,我真的有些愧疚.

是不是我太天真?

还是你遮蔽得太完美了呢?

有时我也不知道要怎么开口,因为你不开心的时候,我也不怎么想去烦你,至少让你先冷静下来什么的.

但这么做,会不会是个错误的决定呢?

朋友,身为你的朋友,我更觉得失败.

我真的还以为,你是个很看得开的人,真的还以为,你能够打理得很好,真的还以为,你不会有那么多的无奈.

我瞎了?

我的心...沉了下来.

如果可以的话,我真得很想分担你的苦楚.

有时候我真的不明白,为何,你会宁愿选择放弃.在我心中,这是个多么难得的机会.多么别人梦寐以求的职位.多么别人想拥有却根本不能国拥有的一切.

原来...背后,真的扛了很多的负担与悲哀.

我突然间觉得,我...根本不是个好的朋友.

也许因为这样,才不配拥有理想的友谊.

对不起,朋友.

我...

真的不知道要怎么办.

朋友虽应赴汤蹈火,在所不辞,应有福同享,有难同当, 应两肋插刀,致死不渝.

我...竟然连最基本的感觉都察觉不出,我...

没用?

还是...

我根本,太高估自己了.

虽然现在,我还不能怎么了解,体会你的感受,因为我没有经历过.

但至少,我知道,为什么你会哭.

我衷心地, 鼓励你.

你是我们的骄傲.

如果连你也觉得自己失败了,我们真的,就无药可救了.

只剩下一个星期.

再过一个星期,就会发现,自己,少了一半.

leona penned down her thoughts at 9:55 PM

Friday, April 11, 2008

morning

dragged my feet to school. almost couldn't really wake up early.

oh man.

i totally don't really feel like typing anything now.

it's like.

i got super lots of stuff i wanted to type previously, but then, it's - now.

firstly,

i shall not talk about what happened during lessons that kind of thing.

basically, it was still fun in the sense that, there's still laughter here and there.

but well...

起初我真的很紧张. 很紧张到, 我好像不能够集中. 环境变着, 但我好像就站在那边, 只听到心砰砰地跳.

我还在想, 我呆会儿要做什么呢? 都不怎么清楚了.

但当我坐在那儿, 听到自己的名字的时候, 我真的开心. 因为我看到, 我周围的朋友都露出真诚的笑容, 为我高兴. 我真的觉得, 很棒, 很棒.

虽然我之前已经知晓了, 而我深刻地记得, 当SIR 跟我说的时候, 我真的挺惊讶的. 因为太突然了. 而且, 这个award是在我觉得,日子会有点难熬的时候,仿佛天赐福给我,叫我说, 其实, 我应该看开.

那看着朋友们的欢笑的刹那, 我真的希望, 我会永远记住.

可一转眼, 我看到了, NP 的另一面.

你可以说, 是悲观的想法, 但是, 这好像是最后几个training 之一了.

yet, there were unhappiness that kind of stuff.

她在我心目中是一个, 既坚强, 又开朗的女生.

我从来没有目睹, 她其实, 也会这样哭.

看着她这样, 我真不知道要怎么办.

鼓励她也好, 安慰她也罢, 我不知道该做些什么来让她变回以前那样.

那样活泼, 事事都可以开玩笑, 甚至lame and crap around, anything.

我真的是打从心里觉得很不舒服.

真的犹如五味瓶似的, 撒在心中, 不知道自己真正的感觉.

几乎相信, 自己已经麻木了.

看到那么多人掉泪, 自己却连哭都哭不出来. 到底问题出在哪儿了?

有时候, 我真的在想, 如果我可以换, 我会不会愿意放弃我在NP里拥有的东西, 包括rank, badges etc, just to 换回多一点的时间? 或者多一点以前的日子?

坦白说, 今天的POP prep, 我跑上church carpark.

顿时, 我发觉, it's all coming back to me now.

those days where we used to train for NDP?

nostalgic.

and we were doing drills!

as a whole sec 4 contingent.

i miss it.

really miss those days.

drills.

then i could totally imagine how it would be like, when we kiri and kanan pusing and march to form a squad.

POP. the last time.

今天... 实在让我觉得, 有些一蹶不振.

因为这么久以来, 我总是很期望NP的trainings, PPC, etc.

今天却.

我想, 错不在于任何人, 最重要的是, 互相扶持.

只要我们活在这个世上, 就永远是AHNP 的一份子!

我想, 事情会恢复过来, 就好像她说, 无论如何, POP 也得继续.

但我更希望, 是一个美好的终点以及起点. for all of us.

leona penned down her thoughts at 9:44 PM

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

previously have been assessing the sec3s in their 1st and 2nd class drill test with sir.

(: great experience. haha.

i guess, i just love my job as a training ic. haha.

really grateful that i was placed in this position, cos... it was actually my 2nd choice.

sometimes it's really miraculous thinking that, eh? how come they really know what is really suitable for me?

haha. (:

I GOT NO MORE TESTS FOR THE WEEK! :D

say you're envious yoh. haha.

yup, so this saturday going for NPDP as audience. go there and support ba~! and go there 开开眼界, haha (:

though will be quite late that kind of thing, but hope it'll be a good "gathering" for AHNP (:

but not alot of people will be going that kind of thing. but oh well. haha.

i guess i like wednesdays(:

and omg, today mr christian chua was super cool. he totally ROCKS! :D

& i really enjoy being friends with you ngik hiong.

maybe this is super duper random, but haha, i wanna say this, even if you may not really see this, but. haha. thank you lotsssssssssssssss. (:

其实, 能够找个知心好友真的很不容易. 我不知道将来会如何, 但至少, 我现在拥有着我们之间的友谊, 所以我也已经觉得很幸福了. (:

谢谢你啦~ 朋友!

leona penned down her thoughts at 8:26 PM

Friday, April 04, 2008

TODAY HAD INTERUNIT! :D

but before that, had muster parade.

i must say, sec 4s, hmmm... 可能很久没有穿full u 了吧, 就有点... not as smart as last time?

which includes me larh har. well...

anyway, muster parade was a short one, with the 2 SIs! (: CONGRATS OKAY. haha.

ahem, 现在请我们吃饭还不算迟哦~ haha.

then... also congrats to all sec3s for their appointments. (:

要为我们这个unit增光! 还有要一直撑下去,不论有多难, 都不要放弃!

yup, then inter-unit. at first... kind of... hmmm... thought it wouldn't be really, fun? cos...

some problems with our station, plus... abit... 尴尬with my partner, but after that was all fine. (:

we went to try out our station. :D

cool man~ wahaha.

it's fun de lorrrr.

and we could complete it in like, less than 3minutes? CALL US THE PRO. THANKS. (:

and there were quite a few other school NP unit cadets.

let me tell you all. ST. PAT'S BOYS THAT CAME TODAY WERE SUPER SUPER :D

if you get what i mean. haha.

they rock man. TO THE CORRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEE. (:

so took quite a few pictures lah. haha. :D

then hmmm... quite enjoyable with the cadets from the other schools? they're quite playful that kind of thing, but, i see the true self in them lah. so... haha. it's still fun lah. (:

then hmmmm, got this girl, haha, say 我可爱leh. not bad ah. (X

and AHEM TAN LI JING. SHE'S NOT WITH HIGH DEGREES OKAYYYYYYY. haha.

yup, so i was rather high, haha. which is cool lah. :D

at least i'm the real leona quek yan peng. RIGHT? :D

so yup, we were kind of, 自high-ing and 自拍ing in the AVT, but hey, it's okay. haha.

congrats to those schools that won the prizes! (: but i think, what's most important is that, y'all find it fun and enjoyable? so... hope it'll leave an unerasable (if it's spelled this way)mark in your NP life! :D

if you notice, i'm full of :D in my post. lol. good thing right? (X

then yup, after the dismissal, we took lots of sec 4 pics too. haha.

AND YUP, congrats sheeeeeena, for attaining the SPF badge! 独一无二哦~! 所以恭喜恭喜~! haha.

yup, so... took alot of photos to 留做纪念. the day we had our inter-unit, AND OUR NEW SHIRT! OH YES, MUST 提起这件事, cos it's 我create那些words for the shirt de leh~! wahaha.

AND OH YAH. CONGRATS TO OUR GROUP FOR THE BEST TD GRP SUBMISSION! wahahaha.

it's SUPER funny. (: great that it's entertaining and it was really a very enjoyable project to do. haha, what's more important was the process of doing it lah. (:

unforgettable. haha.

though i guess, as time goes by, some bits and pieces of these memories will be lost by my brain or something, but i really hope, at least, this is what i've been through, and i really want to appreciate and cherish it. before it's gone.

well, had PPC. and we were laughing like MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

teased megan, (X and well, rayseen, with her pose and everything. lol.

and lots of other stuff lah, haha.

can't really remember all right now, but as time goes by, will remember that, "EH? we said about so and so before it was so funny" lol.

i think, that's good enough lah. haha.

it was great to have RACHEL LIM JIA NING as our NEW MEMBER in our PPC GROUP. wahaha. (:

要经常一起去哦~ hai.

thinking about the future, seriously, just. can't make me stop sighing.

:/

now hearing LOTS of songs. haha.

not bad not bad lah. (:

guess, life is just like that ba. at least, 我们曾经拥有对吧. 如果以后, 真的疏远了, 那只能怪说... 我们的友谊, 缘分, 太薄了吧.

以后的事,没有人会知道, 所以, 顺其自然吧~! haha.

lastly, i just want to end off with,

i just love, being an ahsnpcc NCO. (:

leona penned down her thoughts at 9:30 PM

Thursday, April 03, 2008

here, i am, updating. (:

well... today... had geog common test. yup.

slept near 12am and woke up at 5.15am, i could hardly keep myself awake for the first period of SS.

whoa say.

time really passed quite slowly during lesson time. but well.

today could assess the sec 3s on their 1st class and 2nd class drills.

haha. love my job man. :D

yup, today i was like, HOOOOOOOOOORAYYYYYYYYYYY after the geog test.

not that i did exceptionally well or sth, just that, it's the last paper for the week! OH MY GOSH~!

haha. (:

jiayou for tmr~! (:

and i guess. sometimes i sucks owing people.

i feel threatened.

when will i ever learn?

hard one on me, heaven.

leona penned down her thoughts at 10:12 PM